I don’t know if I should say “consciousness” as I feel only semi-conscious because I have only had half a cup of coffee today. Oh well. Basically, my goal here is to just write whatever I am thinking at just this instant, with little to no editing. I don’t know why I decided to do this, but I felt like I needed to. Right now I am so busy and have so many things floating in my head that I fell like I am a TV on “perma-flip,” jumping from one channel to the next in millisecond increments.
My dog, Joulie, the inspiration behind my logo and blog name is not doing well at all. She is weak, blind on one side, and stiff. All this started with a scratched eye during the icy winter. Her hair is falling out, and she only weighs about 10 lbs or so. She keeps walking into things, and only walks where she can run her body along a wall. She damaged a disk in her back as some point during her eye recovery and that swollen disk pinched off a nerve in her back at some point. She paces all day, rarely laying down for long. She keeps going up the stairs and then hurtles herself down the stairs ending with a heartsickening thud at the bottom. I try to keep a babygate at the bottom of the stairs so she can’t get up, but the Chaos Twins see a gate and must destroy it. I don’t know what to do. Last time I had her at the vet they wanted to do CAT scans and MRIs on her – and when I asked what that would find, the doctor responded with “where we need to do surgery.” I really don’t want to put her through a surgery that may or may not make her better. She had a very hard time recovering from what should have been a simple spay, resulting in permanent metal ties in her gut. I’m not ready to lose her.
I’ve got 3 jobs going right now with deadlines – and I am glad to have them. Any little bit counts, as it feels like my wallet has turned into a sieve. The big expenses just keep coming and I want it to stop. The latest hole in my sieve is needing a new lawnmower. I haven’t been able to mow my own lawn for weeks now, and my nice neighbor has been kind enough to help out, but I can’t keep that up. The mower was running rough, and my sweet Xiris tried his best to fix it this weekend, doing what he really dislikes and that is play with engines. He’d rather use hammers and power tools. He’s not one of those guys that likes to tinker with cars or equipment. When I had my old Karmann Ghia, he’d tink with it along side me, but I think that was because he was worried I was going to hurt myself or blow something up. I think he was never gladder than when I sold that little red pile of metal. So, I am on the hunt for a new mower for cheap, or for a used one that works. I don’t care, but I have decided that I want a pushbutton start one. I hate pulling that stupid cord to try and get the things started. Does such a thing exist? I should probably pick what I want when it comes to mowers because I am the one who mows… hmm, wonder if they make pink ones?
This weekend my husband obliged another one of my weird “LETS DO THIS NOW” obsessions. He traipsed around in open fields with me and helped me pick up big rocks and put them into my garden. We wandered around the unsold homesites in our neighborhood – I was careful to make sure that we were only on the unsold sites. I was just helping the construction guys, right? The rocks look great mixed in with my fluffy perennials, and is just the touch it needed for now. And it was free. If I had paid a landscaper to do that for me it would have been a fortune.
The wedding quilt is in progress, and is coming along nicely. I’ll have an update on that this week (probably tomorrow). There is more to update too – but for now I have to go round up the Chaos Twins and get them into the car and headed out to a StoryTime. Oh – a quick LittleMiss update: SHE IS POTTY TRAINED! Seriously, we haven’t had any accidents in weeks – and only needs a PullUp for sleeping at night. It’s great! I am so freaking over the moon about it!
Busy day today: Story time, wind lots of yarn, work on quilt, lots of phone calls (vets, kid docs, furniture repair guys), things to mail, contracts to return, laundry, cleaning, and I should probably work my own shower in there somewhere!